Forgot to take pics?!

Today was a chill day. I literally sat home all day and just spent time with the boys.  It wasn't any elaborate play time. There were no expectations for me to accomplish anything. I didn't even want to have my phone with me at all times so I would just relax and enjoy the time.  It took some discipline. I think that's why I managed to not capture a single photo today.  And the boys did some cute things...but I just didn't take pics. I enjoyed them and captured those memories in my heart.  Cheesy!!! But true. I forgot to post that yesterday we came home from church and Connor said "We are DEFINITELY home from church!" Haha where he learns these things...I love it. And today he told us more about his primary lesson and the lions and how scary they were and the guy was scared but they didn't eat him.  Love that he is learning these things and gaining a testimony.  He is so smart and sweet. My mom said that he pays attention really well in primary (sharing time) and listens intently.  I know he loves singing time and has always loved primary songs!

My boys are my world.  I feel like I've been going so fast through my days and wanting them to end.     Connor is such a handful that I don't take the time to soak in how much I love him.  Last night I felt like we really bonded for the first time in a while. I mean really bonded.  We cuddled and I sang to him and we read stories and just talked and I told him I loved him. I do these things every night but last night was just different. I held him and could remember the night I held him as a newborn in his room.  I cried so much that night, one of his first nights home. I felt that sincere motherly love for him and didn't want him to ever suffer pain or disappointment.  I wanted to protect him from everything bad and hold him like that forever.  How I miss that moment.  He is so precious to me.  My heart hurts to think of how fast time truly does pass.  He is 3! It's still so young but after we've watched 3 years go by 5 more times he'll be gone.  I'm weird like that with numbers.  But I think of how fast the last 10 years have gone since I graduated.  I can still remember being 12 and being so excited to be 16! It's been 15 1/2 years since I was that age.  When that amount of time has passed again Connor will be on a mission. It's crazy.

I start my job at Bella Baby tomorrow and I'm really hoping it will be productive and give us that extra income we need to build up savings to buy a house.  I want to feel like a grown up and move on in life financially and have stability.  But I really hope it won't add more stress and I can enjoy motherhood to it's fullest.  I love my little angels.  They are my world!!!

Here's to another good day tomorrow!